A Non Traditional Pagan Temple of Guidance
My Lady Freyja, I dedicate all of my work to you.
This is a very moving and intensely personal experience, but I felt moved to share so please forgive me if I am vague with some of the details.
Several years ago I found myself in what I will simply term as the darkest and most unpleasant place I have ever been in my life. I was broken and felt helpless. At the absolute bottom of this pit I had made of my life I had nothing…
I remember very clearly being in a heap on the floor and feeling her presence, the presence of Freyja, warm, glowing and very strong. I looked up and began to cry. Damn even thinking about it now is bringing tears to my eyes.
To make a very long and painful story short, I cried with her long into the night and we spoke on many things.
I vowed to make the changes in my life that I needed to and she informed me that I was already with child. A daughter.
I had not missed a cycle so I was a bit iffy on the already with child info, but she insisted it was a Valentines Day Gift from her to me. Valentines day had been several months prior, so I was confused but I bought a pregnancy test anyway.
Yes it was positive. I informed my husband and thus began our road to recovering from the mess we had found ourselves in, with more vigor then we could of ever mustered on our own. Not that having a baby is a way to solve anything..that is not the point. But it does give the hopeless reason to look harder for that hope…In our particular situation it gave us something to grasp, solid ground to begin to stand on, and a strong purpose to move forward again.
I discovered after a few OB/GYN visits that I was in fact three months pregnant and that she was most likely conceived around..yep. .Feb 14th. I had a small hemorrhage that for some reason no one could explain just happened to bleed for a few days each month for three months at my normal cycle time.
We named our Daughter Serenity Freyja.
Every time I look at her beautiful blue eyes I cant imagine that I am doing enough to honor Freyja for all she has done for me. She asked that I learn Seidr and that is all she has asked of me.
When I began to put everything together for this coven I was researching Persephone and Hades because I was asked to research a divine couple for the Seminary and wanted to learn something new . They brought several fine students to the temple and for that I am grateful. However, it is to Freyja that I must dedicate the work that I have done and continue to do. As the Anglo Saxon Goddess of Love and Witchcraft (thats the short list) she guides me even when I am unaware that she is doing so.
My experience with Freyja is that she is a very generous and loving Goddess. She will move things in your life so that changes are made, she will make it so there is no turning back for you…but she will not abandon you. She is patient. She is not one to give lectures; she is more likely to just cause change to occur regardless of how ready you feel you are. She expects you to notice and live up to the challenge, but if you don't she will cry with you and listen and cause more change until you do live up to it. At least that is my experience.
So long over due I officially dedicate all of my work past and present to The Lady, to Freyja. You were there in my darkest hour and you should be held up high in the light that I have found as well.
Thank you my Lady.
Several years ago I found myself in what I will simply term as the darkest and most unpleasant place I have ever been in my life. I was broken and felt helpless. At the absolute bottom of this pit I had made of my life I had nothing…
I remember very clearly being in a heap on the floor and feeling her presence, the presence of Freyja, warm, glowing and very strong. I looked up and began to cry. Damn even thinking about it now is bringing tears to my eyes.
To make a very long and painful story short, I cried with her long into the night and we spoke on many things.
I vowed to make the changes in my life that I needed to and she informed me that I was already with child. A daughter.
I had not missed a cycle so I was a bit iffy on the already with child info, but she insisted it was a Valentines Day Gift from her to me. Valentines day had been several months prior, so I was confused but I bought a pregnancy test anyway.
Yes it was positive. I informed my husband and thus began our road to recovering from the mess we had found ourselves in, with more vigor then we could of ever mustered on our own. Not that having a baby is a way to solve anything..that is not the point. But it does give the hopeless reason to look harder for that hope…In our particular situation it gave us something to grasp, solid ground to begin to stand on, and a strong purpose to move forward again.
I discovered after a few OB/GYN visits that I was in fact three months pregnant and that she was most likely conceived around..yep. .Feb 14th. I had a small hemorrhage that for some reason no one could explain just happened to bleed for a few days each month for three months at my normal cycle time.
We named our Daughter Serenity Freyja.
Every time I look at her beautiful blue eyes I cant imagine that I am doing enough to honor Freyja for all she has done for me. She asked that I learn Seidr and that is all she has asked of me.
When I began to put everything together for this coven I was researching Persephone and Hades because I was asked to research a divine couple for the Seminary and wanted to learn something new . They brought several fine students to the temple and for that I am grateful. However, it is to Freyja that I must dedicate the work that I have done and continue to do. As the Anglo Saxon Goddess of Love and Witchcraft (thats the short list) she guides me even when I am unaware that she is doing so.
My experience with Freyja is that she is a very generous and loving Goddess. She will move things in your life so that changes are made, she will make it so there is no turning back for you…but she will not abandon you. She is patient. She is not one to give lectures; she is more likely to just cause change to occur regardless of how ready you feel you are. She expects you to notice and live up to the challenge, but if you don't she will cry with you and listen and cause more change until you do live up to it. At least that is my experience.
So long over due I officially dedicate all of my work past and present to The Lady, to Freyja. You were there in my darkest hour and you should be held up high in the light that I have found as well.
Thank you my Lady.
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