Hi Stacy Marie, I'm still doing my meditation for 20 minutes every evening, changing location, position, with and without cat, etc. I still can't do the black dot exercise. I've been reading lots and lots, every book our library has on Wicca, pagani…
You will find a suggested reading list in the Zenithian 101 for Dedicates group as well as a complete set of Dedicate level lessons.
Also in the Outer Court under the General Lessons section you will find an article titled, " Zenithian Views on Deity" that may interest you.
Please do not hesitate to ask me any questions you may have.
Be Blessed
Stacy Marie